Window Cracked

Keep the window cracked for me
I got one foot out the door
I don't know which move more brave
To stay or to explore
Keep the window cracked for me
If I jump, I might not live
But I can't bear to look outside
And see how high I is

Everybody wan' be special, but nobody wanna live special
Watchin' rappers' videos, they looks like kids' specials, yeah
No wonder all these dudes are slimy
'Twas the night before the death of real, I came in nick of timin'
I know I could get ahead if I could put some shit bеhind me
I'm from where thеy drink olde English and they keep it grimy
So always been skeptical, kept the belly full
Of fear and trauma and a lotta shit that I just wouldn't address with you
Can't even sit alone and chill now
Am I even equipped to know what's real now?
When I'm alone, I want my friends
When I'm with friends, I want alone
Man, what the fuck's the deal now?
If I can't be with myself, how can you be with me?
Feel like I'm stuck in motion, I've had enough of copin'
I don't know if I'm meant to be here or there
If you knew the truth, I'd be too scared to hear it, damn

Keep the window cracked for me
I got one foot out the door
I don't know which move more brave
To stay or to explore
Keep the window cracked for me
If I jump, I might not live
But I can't bear to look outside
And see how high I is

It's been a long journey
Spent some time workin' on me, but I'm not splurging
It used to be because I probably thought I was not worthy
Now the habit's so ingrained, it's just all blurry
Yeah, I don't want or need attachment
Guess that's why I always gotta leave the window cracked and
Just let a draft in
But I ain't jumpin' out until I know where I land and I don't got a plan
How you write a script for a story you don't know?
How do I define what hasn't already been told?
A lot of folks be comin' face to face with they soul
When it's too late and it's already been sold
But that ain't me
Blessin', but it's hard
It's on me now, no more guessin' who's in charge
I gotta figure out who marlon is
The kid who played the hand he's dealt and now the cards is his, shit

Keep the window cracked for me
I got one foot out the door
I don't know which move more brave
To stay or to explore
Keep the window cracked for me
If I jump, I might not live
But I can't bear to look outside
And see how high I is