testimony

Yeah, uh
Man, it's a honor, it's a weapon
It's a honor, it's a privilege
Yeah, uh

Fucked up as a child, I took my daddy hydros
Ain't look in granny Bible, but I got high
And tried to write it with my eyes closed, overdosed tryna micro
Juugin' off the clock and off the books and off the tight rope
Delicate balance, family wincin', not convinced
It's the best I can manage, I submit that there's no vet
The said steps that I'm dancin', I'ma settle but chance it
I think death was my last kiss, I'm a helpless romantic
But I got wishes, wish my granddad was here, I'd tell him that I did it
Wish that things were easier for me and my sister
Wish that things were simpler 'tween me and my brothers
I wish for peaceful sleep in the dreams of my mother
I wish the threat of loss ain't come with all my lusting
And with my final wish, I'm wishing for another
Or, or like three more
Until I slumber with my brothers on the sea floor, I'm a living dream

Yeah, why it sound like I'm complaining saying it ain't what it seem?
Yeah, like yeah, I prayed for all this paper, wasn't thinking what it'd mean
Yeah, through all my days, I just be grateful I don't look like what I seen
Until I slumber with my brothers on the sea floor, I'm a living dream
Yeah, like why it sound like I'm complaining saying it ain't what it seem?
Yeah, like yeah, I prayed for all this paper, wasn't thinking what it'd mean
Yeah, through all my days, I just be thankful I don't look like what I seen
Uh, uh, I'm the plan for all my family, where I'm living they achieved

I swear to God, like
Just to be able to be here from working
Travel and see the world and
Experience the love of so much people
And contribute something to the world
That's all my family every wanted for me
And all anybody who's ever loved me ever wanted for me
And they wanted it for they self too, but
Sometimes like, you know what I'm saying
Life is shorter than the imagination
And I'm just glad I get to walk in all their paces
It's a blessing
It's a blessing, it's a blessing, it's a blessing
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