Devil You Know

Deal with the devil you know, take it slow
You might show up, you might lose him
When you grow up, you might blow up, you might pop
None of that's a good reason to stop

I can still hear it
You're so ambitious, she spit at me like a curse
What made it worse is that she was right
I looked in the mirror that night and saw what she saw
A dreamer clenching her jaw
Soon to be a dying violet between the noise and silence
Accusing every co-pilot willing to step up to the plate
Of throwing me off my game, headed for a crash landing
With little to no understanding of what I was taking on
The goalposts always move, no one's honest with you
And the point you're trying to prove is lost
Your life is recovery or shit in the Moon
You're hovering over the room, people muttering, talking about you
And you're still not doing what you know you could do

I still want it, what's my problem?

Deal with the devil you know, take it slow
He might show up, you might lose him
When you grow up, you might blow up, you might pop
None of that's a good reason to stop
Always been hot for teacher
Keep getting older and they do too
A little information right out of my grasp
Better answers to the questions I'm afraid to ask
Kissing on a curve (open-mouthed education)
Building my nerve (testing my patience)
Did I make the most of what I'm made of?
Did I face what I'm afraid of?
Am I a little close to the truth?
Keeps getting hotter as you do
I wanna be a live wire
Don't wanna steal, don't wanna get tired
Don't wanna be a slot machine
Don't wanna miss the mark
I wanna be the weak spot
Between the eyes of a shark

Deal with the devil you know, take it slow
You might show up, you might lose him
When you grow up, you might blow up, you might pop
None of that's a good reason to stop

You can't chase the ghost
You find it more than most
I don't care how old your soul is
It's just focus and preparation
It takes failure, it takes patience
To deal with the devil you know

Deal with the devil you know, take it slow
You might show up, you might lose him
When you grow up, you might blow up, you might pop
None of that's a good reason to stop

It's not over
You're not done
You're not nothing
And you're not the only one