Blossom

Where will you go when you realize that I’m a lost hope?
I know that you know it, you try not to show it
It’s okay, I don’t blame you - I blame myself
My indecisions decide themselves

We fell in love so young, our roots became one and the same, but we’ll grow and we’ll change
No matter what you do or where you go home to, you’ll have a home in my veins
I won’t bury you in my head
I won’t ever hold you back again

I’ve been so settled on not settling, I’ve been settling for less
All my nerves are shutting down
All I’m left with is depression and this fucking emptiness that I’ve allowed to take control
And I don’t know if I’m strong enough to even fucking let this go

Where will you go when you realize that I’m a lost hope?
I know that you know it, you try not to show it
It’s okay, I don’t blame you - I blame myself
My indecisions decide themselves

Only I can get myself out of this mess, because I can’t leech off your confidence forever
I became the dead weight tethered to your feet, dragging you further down here with me

I’ve been there for a while now, and as I’m sinking in, I bleed you out
But slow enough that you just cope with it
You’re finding comfort in the pain
I don’t want to keep you from what you deserve, I’m not worth it anyway

Where will you go when you realize that I’m a lost hope?
I know that you know it, you try not to show it
It’s okay, I don’t blame you - I blame myself
My indecisions decide themselves

Leave, just leave me here
I’ve shed the skin of who you love, who I was has disappeared
You won’t believe me, you see me through the painted glass
It’s what’s keeping us together, but how much longer can it last?