Bargain

This life has come only to shatter us
I no longer wish to be a part of it
If only I could turn all pain into joy
Maybe I wouldn't be so self-destructive
We build our castles and shrines seeking true happiness
But it all turns to ashes when we realize
All we are left with

Is loneliness
In the end
Loneliness (loneliness)
I'll descend

Spent all these years wasting all these tears
Looking for a way out
Guess I've found it, taking myself down with it
Make you all fucking proud

I've tried, no one knows how fucking hard I've tried
But now it's no use looking back
I guess life will keep dragging from infra to ultra
To pitch fucking black

Downward spiral, death admiral, my new desire
Tie a knot, I'll fucking rot
Suspended by the neck in barbed wire
Fuck it