So Called Love

I'm always seeing different shades of you
And in my mind they look the same
But when it turns to crimson red from midnight blue
The silver lining fades away

I’m looking pale and I need something new
You used to take away the pain
But now we always have a different point of view
Still, I'm calling out your name

Now you're pushing me aside like it ended
I’m trying to understand it
You're fucking with all my senses
Now my mind is too conflicted

By this so-called love
I just can't get my head around it
'Cause it hurts enough
How can we go back to the place we started?
In this so-called love
In this so-called love

I don't want you to be my alcohol
Now you're a habit and I'm never gonna break it
I'm crying, I’m bleeding
With my head against the wall
Back to square one and I can’t reshape it

You're pushing me aside like it ended
I’m trying to understand this
I can't figure out my senses
And now my mind is so conflicted

But this so-called love
I just can't get my head around it
'Cause it hurts enough
How can we go back to the place we started?
And this so-called love
And this so-called love

Still begging, still needing
We made mistakes we’re repeating
Now I'm crying and I'm bleeding
For this so-called love
Still angry, and I'm feeling
We made a mess, now we're healing
And I'm trying to believe in this so-called love