I'd hate to be my friend

I’ve been living on a handout
You put your loving on the line, hope it pans out
But you’ve been looking at a man down
Only a matter of time before you find out

You can’t keep pretending that this shit ain’t pathetic
You think that you can end it, but I think I know better than that
One day, you're gonna walk out
'Cause you gave me all the care, and I think it finally ran out

How many times till you let go?
Flake on your plans to help me cope and convince me we won't be here
Again, and again, and again, and again

How many nights do I have left?
Till you decide that I'm a mess, I'm a problem
Always at your expense
I'd hate to be my friend

I’ve been living through a breakdown
Every threat inside my head’s about to break out
No, I could never seem to shake how
I know it’s gonna end
But I don’t know

How many times till you let go?
Flake on your plans to help me cope and convince me we won't be here
Again, and again, and again, and again

How many nights do I have left?
Till you decide that I'm a mess, I'm a problem
Always at your expense
I'd hate to be my friend

I’d hate to be my friend, yeah
Oh, God, it’s so damn pathetic, you keep on forgetting
You don’t wanna end it, but we go again and again
All the sudden, I breakdown
We’re going again and again and again

How many times till you let go?
Flake on your plans to help me cope and convince me we won't be here
Again, and again, and again, and again

How many nights do I have left?
Till you decide that I'm a mess, I'm a problem
Always at your expense
I'd hate to be my friend