Letting Go

I think we had a breakthrough again
Track the words I say with a pen
Promise it won't happen again
Tell me how you feel out of ten

Like I'm diving downward spiraling
And I just can't get a grip
I'm losing sight of it
Teeth clenched hands shake
I don't feel safe here anymore

I'm holding on to letting go
This is a house but it's not my home
You can take my memories
I wish I could leave them when I go

I'm holding on to letting go
Of it all but I'm afraid it won't let go of me
As I'm leaving feel it teething
I can't breathe constricting
It feels like my worlds ending
It's growing consuming
And slowly I'm removing you

Point to where they hurt you the most
I think you need another dose

Now I'm drowning treading aimlessly
And I just can't catch a breath
I'm losing hope again

Fill everything with hate
Put your fingers in the wound
It will all be over soon
As your vision starts to fade
Who will help you numb the pain

I'm holding on to letting go
This is a house but it's not my home
You can take my memories
I wish I could leave them when I go
Losing you was my best find
I finally made it through the night
I saw the sky when I shut my eyes
You're no longer on my mind

I gave you so many chances
You threw them all away
I never needed you anyway
I said all I had to say
I'll be who I wanna be
On my own
I'm just trying to find a way
To cut from your tragedy
I'll be who I wanna be
On my own

Tell me how you're feeling today
I'm sorry that you feel that way
That's all the time we have for today
Is there anything you want to say

For a moment falling feels like flying
Until you hit the ground