Seppuku

The last time that you looked on my eyes, you said:
'when you needed, i fell into your arms
you asked, and on the same second we could share our moment of joy,
nothing could be better'

And now i see your tears and realize how i miss you
And now my strenght gone away and my life will never be the same
(and i'm so sorry while you are dying)

Once again you hate me and it's not a shame
(all my actions made me deserve it!)
In the end the facts turned me into a monster
From now to eternity the fucking last one!

Sometimes my chest hurts
and butterflies has taken my sleep away tonight
i bled through the door
the whole house could hear my screams
who said that nothing as it seems?

To live like a cancer?
I don't want this.
Today is the last day... i'm so sorry.
I still love you.