Sorry I'm Different

And she asked me
If death sat next to you in a bar
Looked you in the face
Said the time is up, what would you say?

My first question would be
Oh what took you so long?
I sent the invitation long ago
You rejected me so many times

Sorry man, one last thing
Can we just sit together for a bit
So I can finally have a friend?
Please

Oh, I don't mean to make you cry
But when I die, just box me off
I need no headstone, no names
No titles I'm a piece of shit
Who will be forgotten anyway

My mind has been a war zone
At least I pray I find peace now
And if I die, no matter what
Don't bring me back here
It's dark here
And I hate the dark

But at least I tried
Even though I tried
With memories I would love
To relive again

I don't want to be born again
Not in this God-forsaken place
And to you, that one person
I wish I could give you the world
So you know I care

But how can I love you
When I don't even love who I am
How do I give you peace
When my mind is a war zone
How do I find you
When I've lost my mind and my way

How do I tell you
We will be okay when I'm barely
Holding on
How do I tell you the truth
When I've been lying to myself
My whole life
That it's okay

My mind has been a war zone
At least I pray I find peace now
And if I die, no matter what
Don't bring me back here
It's dark here
And I hate the dark

But at least I tried
At least I tried
With memories I would love
To relive again
Oh, to relive again

I'm a fish in the desert
There's nothing to do to save me
I am drowning in a sea
No one can swim
I'm already doomed
And no one can save me