Nocturnal (Owl)

Drunken thoughts
Lead me to the darkest place
That I never thought I could see

I come to the edge of what is real
(Woah)
Yet so far gone, but closer to the truth

So vividly yet so blurred
And I don't mean to hurt those around me
But we, can't deny the truth of the lies that we speak

With each day, cracked and etched in stone
Places we'll never get back
With every line that we've crossed
Will we be able to cross back
Or yet another line will be crossed
Do we cross, or do we stay because settling feels so humane
Do we cross, or do we stay

I'm on the edge of giving in
(I'm on the edge of giving in)
I'm in a state of breaking down
Another bottle down the hatch
So I can numb the pain
(So I can numb the pain)
And pour another shot to match
Until my life is drowned away
I'm not the man that I once was
I'm becoming a shell of what used to be
I took a chug to the end of the bottle
And poured the last drop down the drain

But I took a step back
To take a look at my self
Only to find that there was still a part of me
Me
Holding on for dear life

Using my vices to escape back to the place I'd rather not see
I've been tryin my best to resolve this
Crying out for help in solitude
I can only help myself
I've done this all before
I can't believe all the damage I have caused
Just drinking my own life away
I've been selfish and insecure
Losing my life to the poison
Do we cross, or do we stay

Reaching for another bottle
I collapse
I don't know who I am anymore
I collapse