Why me ?

In the horrible abyss of darkness
I am hurt blind man alike
I touch the shapes the shapes blindfold
I move my expecting
Hand upon them
And I feel them bearing up into my mind
I search the picture of them in the unconcious
But they are so far and unknown

Why can't i know the colours of rainbow ?
Why the moon and the sun are strange to me ?
Why can't I see the people's faces ?

I do not know
The difference between
The smile and tearful eyes

Why me?
In the emptiness hurting to pain
I am thristy beggar alike
I want to reach heaven at last
I want to feel the sence of my existence
And discower the purpose of earthly journey
But what if does not exist?
Will I be able to reach for the sun ?

Why does the uncertainly follow me ?
Why I am so strange ?
Why do I feel cheated and moved back ?

Why me?