My Own Hell

it's cold in here
and I can't deny
that I'm full of fear
and I say goodbye
I try to flee
but there's no escape

it's my own hell

my own hell - I'm blind and numb
I can't realize what you have done (to me again)
I curse this circle of repetitions
so please show mercy and let me die

I'm here, I'm numb
I don't need to be protected
just hurt me once again
and you will be infected

I spread my disease

my own hell - I'm blind and numb
I can't realize what you have done (to me again)
I curse this circle of repetitions
so please show mercy and let me die

I'm captured - no way out
as it has been so often before
I don't understand what this all is about
and I despair once more

my own hell - I'm blind and numb
I can't realize what you have done (to me again)
I curse this circle of repetitions
so please show mercy and let me die

my dreams fall down, collapse like a house of cards
I try to fix them, try to repair but they're just teared apart