It Hurts Until It Doesn't

I felt alive for a little while
But when I died I had the time to notice
I was crushed by the weight of my own ego
But never honest enough to say it

I felt your love for a little while
But never had the guts to give myself up
I said that I could be just what you wanted
As if I could ever keep a promise

You have eyes in every room
But you won't see me
You won't see me
You won't see me walk away
Once I was more than just a song to play
On your haunted tape
I don't want to be away

Could have sworn I heard you laughing in the doorway

I don't like myself
When I'm awake