Holding On To Smoke

    C#m                 A9
I'm tired of feeling comatose
     C#m                 A9
I've lost the me that I loved most
    C#m                 A9
I'm barely holding onto smoke
     C#m
I'm barely holding on to smoke!

( C#m  A9  E  B5(9) )
( C#m  A9  E  B5(9) )

E                         C#m
 I'm not addicted but I'm not clean
A9                        B5(9)
 Why do I do this to myself on 
repeat
E                         C#m
 So disconnected from my own reality
A9                      B5(9)
 Am I man or machine

     C#m                  A9
If I give, will you take?
     E            B5(9)
As I lie for the taste
     C#m           A9
I just fuck it up
     E            B5(9)  A9
As you lap it up

E
(Go!)
                  C#m
Through flesh and bone
          A9
I walk alone
(Go!)
If I run will I fade away
 B5(9)
'Cause I don't wanna leave it behind

[Chorus]

          C#m           A9
In all my pride, all my shame
      E                B5(9)
I find strength enough to show you
      C#m              A9
I may bend but I won't break
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           E
'Cause I define who I
   B5(9)
Define who I become

E                      C#m
 I miss the me that I have not met
A9                     B5(9)
 Choking in silence on the words 
left unsaid
E                      C#m
 I feel a sickness for a home I've 
never been
A9                        B5(9)
 And I exist in black and white but 
now I'm seeing red

C#m
 I built a shelter in complacency
F#m                     B5(9)
Locked myself in and set fire, And 
threw away the key
C#m
Too scared to live but I'm afraid to
 die
A9
So am I living or am I just alive?

[Chorus]

         C#m        A9
In all my pride, all my shame
        E                B5(9)
I find strength enough to show you
      C#m              A9
I may bend but I won't break
   E            B5(9)
I define who I who I become
          C#m              A9
'Cause I'm tired of feeling comatose
     E               F#m
I've lost the me that I loved most
     C#m              A9
I'm barely holding on to smoke
       E               B5(9)
But I'm holding on, I'm holding on

C#m
Broken! I'm holding on
E
Driven! To right the wrong
C#m         A9               
Silent! Connected yet I feel so 
    E
separated
C#m
Fallen! Through flesh and bone
E
Frozen! I stand alone
C#m                     A9  
Deafened! In silence the voice 
      E
remains

          C#m             A9
Behind my eyes, beneath my rage
        E               F#m
I was struggling to get through
       C#m              A9
Out of time and out of faith
E                   B5(9)
I define who I become!

         C#m        A9
In all my pride, all my shame
        E                B5(9)
I find strength enough to show you
      C#m              A9
I may bend but I won't break
   E
I define who I
B5(9)
Define who I become
          C#m              A9
'Cause I'm tired of feeling comatose
     E               F#m
I've lost the me that I loved most
     C#m              A9
I'm barely holding on to smoke
       E               B5(9)
But I'm holding on, I'm holding on
    C#m                   A9
I'm tired of being human, tired of 
being numb
    E                    B5(9)
I'm waiting for the holy ghost to 
come
   C#m                    A9
So save me from the webs that I have
 spun
    F#m         B5(9)
I'm holding on, holding on
F#m
I'm holding on
     B5(9)    A5
Holding on to smoke!