Fail You

It starts simply — nice and slow
But the current grows so quickly
Skipping stones I didn’t throw
You’re sinking beneath me
I try my best to pull you in
I'm kicking and screaming, you slip
And I wake up in a sweat

To see you’re next to me
Still quietly in bed

I know I’ll fail you again
I’ve got this weight on my chest
Just dying to breathe
I know I’ll fail you again
I feel that hand at my neck
And it’s only a dream
But I know I’ll fail you again

The worst is
It happens twice every time
How perfect
I'm terrified, ever violent sequence
Repeating before my eyes
This can’t be right, I'm speechless
And weakened, and when it ends
I wake up in a sweat
To see you’re next to me
Still quietly in bed

But I know I’ll fail you again

I'm afraid to sleep at night
Every time I close my eyes I'm fighting
Get me out, get me out
Cut me open, bleed me dry
I’d rather that than have to see you crying
Get me out, just get me out of
All these dreams you die in