Life For Rent

I'll keep my head up high for the rest of my life
My life is for rent, I'm blocked, I need to buy it
I'll go until the end, I will go by myself
To the other side, and I know that there ain't be no one else there
So, I think I'm lost
I think my life is for rent

Congratulations to me
That the words I need to listen
Congratulations to me
I have never really listen them
Why do we have our heroes?
And why do we wanna be them?
After we see them on TV, we really wanna meet them
My dreams were destroyed in this lifeline
Now I'm over twenty in this shit of timeline
And I'll be fine
Though I'll be breaking more hearts than mine

'Thus I go on'
Freedom is my target
Life ever goes on
Though sometimes I forget
That there's no freedom in this world of darkness
We're all slaves and slog in this shit of madness
DAMN!
I seem to be crazy
But I don't deserve this loneliness
My head is under water
This world is coming timeless
My life is for rent and I need more time to buy it back
My freedom was stolen
Now my heart is black
Of seen and impurity
And I can no more get along with this fucking badness
And this fucking suffering always seems to be endless
DAMN!
I think I am the least in this timeline
Sorry if I'm out of line
But I need my life
Either need a long time
And a second chance to fix what I've broken in another life
Now my life is for rent and I need to get it again
I beg for a second chance but I am a mess
Looking around, I see what was supposed to be mine
Freedom for my life, it's what was supposed to be mine
I've always thought that I would serve God for the rest of my life and live more simply
I have no idea what's happened to that dream
Cause there's really nothing left here to stop me
My life is my worst nightmare in which I am the real monster
And curse is a stumble stone that don't let me be stronger
I would be proud of my life but it ain't a blessing
And it's true
I hate my life
I wish it was mine
But I just have it for rent
I wish I had time before so that I could make it different
Every single night, I make the reflections
Of how I'll be judged and punished for my actions
Some weren't my intentions
But it was ever harder to get the precision
Mercy, mercy, I beg!
Mercy, mercy, I need!
It was ever harder to get
The most things that I need
And I'll keep my head up high
Sticking around
And keep my wide-eyed
Looking around
I see people smiling to me
But I know there're few people really smiling for me
Cause I know that many people are laughing at me
And nothing I can do
Unless I go away and edge away to follow my own way
And never die away

Though I live, I don't live for me
I'm walking in the darkness
Don't do things for me
Can someone handle me a little brightness
Cause I need to live in brightness
Depression is my enemy
Anxiety is my enemy
And stress is my enemy
My feelings are my enemies
I need to buy my life
Cause it is for rent
I need it to be mine
It's broken
I will mend
Maybe I mistook
Remember when I was stood
I'll buy it for real
So I need the tools
To manage it correctly in company of other people
And turn unforgettable, unbreakable
Resilience isn't unbelievable

Depression is my enemy
Anxiety is my enemy
And stress is my enemy
My feelings are my enemies