Lazarus

I can't sing that song the same way anymore
Cause I start laughing at the parts where I could only weep before
And it sounds sweeter now because the notes can't ring
Until they echo through each wasted year that you restored to me

I've been thinking of how you wept for lazarus
Tears on your cheeks, resurrection on your lips
Sometimes mercy can feel like abandonment
But you know all about it

I used to think I had to write these songs just so
For heavens sake and for my own I put myself through hell
But I quit striving for perfection; surrendered up to it instead
And now the songs keep pouring out and I cannot contain myself

I've been thinking of how you wept for lazarus
Tears on your cheeks, resurrection on your lips
(Broken will)
Sometimes mercy feels just like abandonment
(Find your rest / broken voice)
You let my heart die, but left yours beating in my chest
(You sing best)

At 30, 000 feet above, the earth was small enough
To think of everyone I love
And then imagine them a thousand mirrors
All reflected back at once
And any light would multiply and then remind me
That your love is more than the sum