Memories (I Don't Have)

Sometimes I think about why you left
Was it my fault, was it easy?
Sometimes I block it all, better yet
I disconnect from all feelings

All my life I thought that actions speak louder than words
But I started thinking how different I'd be if I heard you tell me

Don't deal in lies, don't play with truth
Staying fine when the odds are stacked against you
Oh, your advice of falling in love
I hear you telling me
Whatever happens, oh, I have your back
But they're memories I don’t have

I told myself you took nothing away
But then all of your shame became weight on my shoulders
Convincing myself it would all be okay
Like having faith, win a war without soldiers

All my life I thought that actions speak louder than words (than words)
But I started thinking how different I'd be if I hurt you, tell me

Don't deal in lies, don't play with truth
Staying fine even when the world's against you
Oh, your advice of falling in love
Oh, I hear you telling me