The World Outside

You'd better get me some help
This is killing me
I need your help
Digging myself deeper and deeper
The chaos unfolds, the devil has arrived

Find me someone to talk to
I have some questions
About the person
I've become

Now I find myself
Spinning, in circles
In this difficult time
Im scaring myself
I don't sleep, I can only wait

The things on my mind
And the horrors
Inside
Are vested in me

I don't think you get what I mean
I don't think you get what I mean

I see myself fall apart
The ones I love can only
Stand and watch
Stand and watch

And I could tell you one million truths
About how I got here and good karma never helped
How my thoughts and my actions have ruined my life
But you don't understand, you don't understand
And you refuse to listen to me
When I tell you, that I am fine, I can stop when I want to
But is that the truth or am I just holding back
Scared to disappoint myself, or is it too late

This is the sound
Of my heart and mind when they collide
Of my heart and mind when they collide

I will not read
From the same page as you
No more
I can change the habits of a lifetime
Hold that faith
Keep that faith

Alter the plans
I'll alter the plans
I'll make the changes
I can sort this myself
I stick to the path

I take solace from
Taking the same steps
Following my rules
Walking the same flaws

I promised myself I'd never be
The type of person who was afraid to leave
My home because of the world outside
This is the sound of my heart and mind when they collide