Over &over

There's something in the water
The writings on the wall
I always seem to let me down
No surprise at all
And I just wanna mean it when I say I'm fine
You always believe me when I tell that lie
I feel like I'm running from myself if I'm honest
And now that I'm losing control
I don't wanna break down and fuck things up
But I can't help thinking
I'm just not good enough
Cause I just can't get it right
Should I even try to fight?

Oh, I'm just gonna break down and fuck things up
Over and over
The days only get harder
And I can't ask for help
I'm terrified of breaking down
And I can't trust myself
Why am I drowning in all this suffering?

Bottles of all this medicine tear me apart
How did I get this far?
I don't wanna break down and fuck things up
But I can't help thinking
I'm just not good enough
'Cause I just can't get it right
Should I even try to fight?

Oh, I'm just gonna break down and fuck things up
Over and over
Over and over
I'm falling apart at the seams
(Stitch me back together)
I'm already down on my knees
I don't wanna break down and fuck things up
But I'll never be good enough
'Cause I just can't get it right
Should I even try to fight?

Oh, I'm just gonna break down and fuck things up
Over and over
Over and over
Oh