I Don't Wanna Be Here

I bought all these questions in my mind, and I'm still taking pain
I bought all these homies all around, I just can’t take ‘em away
I'm so overrated, overthinking, but I'm still the same
I am not around me anymore, and I can fail me
I am tryna do the certain thing, but I'm still just right here
I am out of control, and my mind still yelling me
My purpose to breathe, I'm awake, don’t wanna be here
I don’t wanna be here

I don’t wanna lose myself again
I don’t wanna fall apart again
I don’t wanna stay away from my illness
I don’t wanna be in love again
You always put me down, again
You always call me back, again
You’re still making me feel the blame, again
You’re always by my side, and still