New York Hills

(You kissed me high on New York hills)

'Cause love up here's a glass château
All crystal smiles and vertigo
One stupid slip, one crack below
And suddenly you're free to go

I learned young that hearts like mine
Get measured on a thinner line
One wrong word and I'm defined
As every flaw they left behind

Tried to be the kind you hold
Oh, I tried, tried, tried

On these New York hills, love's a dangerous height
One misstep and you're falling through the city lights
And every forever feels counterfeit
Like I'm one bad night from becoming your worst
Yeah, I'm smiling still, but it's a goddamn skill
Acting like I don't fear the drop, but I always will
Because up on these hills
If I fuck this thrill
Then maybe I was never worthy of love that's real

You say my name like it's sacred art
Like I'm not chaos wrapped in charm
But I know how fast devotion starts
Then turns a knife inside your arms
I've seen I love you weaponized
Turned to ash in pretty lies
So every kiss becomes a test
Of whether I deserve the best

If I'm flawless, maybe this time
You won't leave me there behind

On these New York hills, love's a dangerous height
One misstep and you're falling through the city lights
And every forever feels counterfeit
Like I'm one bad night from becoming your worst
Yeah, I'm smiling still, but it's a goddamn skill
Acting like I don't fear the drop, but I always will
Because up on these hills
If I fuck this thrill
Then maybe I was never worthy of love that's real

And the skyline looks like heaven from afar
But heaven's just a view when you don't know who you are
I built my worth on whether lovers stayed
Like every broken promise was a debt I had to pay
And I'm so damn tired of performing for the prize
Of begging to be chosen while I'm bleeding in disguise
If love is only mine when I am perfectly fulfilled
Then burn these golden towers
I don't want New York hills

(You kissed me high on New York hills)