Nicolas In Wonderland

I'm in wonderland
Lying about things shouldn't lie about
Walking on cobblestones
And smelling my death

Bad analogies about my life
Compiled from my fears
A dagger made just to kill me
I change my number every day

It wasn't supposed to be like this
I couldn't get lost
But your look is captivating

In Wonderland, I will die
In Wonderland, I will bury myself
In Wonderland, I will regret the best moments
Why did I kill all my sweetest versions
And I left the worst in charge
In Wonderland, I will go crazy
In Wonderland, I will cry a river
In Wonderland, I will fight a thousand battles
And I will lose them all

I forgot how happy I am
It was supposed to be the best of all
But I never accepted that perfection doesn't exist
In my crazy head, she's entirely real
Everything that's happening to me is fair
I did things I shouldn't have done

I forgot the real meaning of life
But now it doesn't matter
I already lost myself (what the fuck did I do?)

It wasn't supposed to be like this
I couldn't get lost
But your look is captivating

In Wonderland, I will die
In Wonderland, I will bury myself
In Wonderland, I will regret the best moments
Why did I kill all my sweetest versions
And I left the worst in charge
In Wonderland, I will go crazy
In Wonderland, I will cry a river
In Wonderland, I will fight a thousand battles
And I will lose them all

I hurt people I love
I broke ties, I broke contracts
Why did I have to be like this
Why did I always want things perfect
I'm not even a Virgo, my mother is
But I wanted something to comfort me
And when I didn't find it, I went crazy

It wasn't supposed to be like this
I couldn't get lost
But your look is captivating

In Wonderland, I will die
In Wonderland, I will bury myself
In Wonderland, I will regret the best moments
Why did I kill all my sweetest versions
And I left the worst in charge
In Wonderland, I will go crazy
In Wonderland, I will cry a river
In Wonderland, I will fight a thousand battles
And I will lose them all