Reckoning

I’ve been caught in a cage of my own damn pain
Every smile I fake is a link in the chain
Tears in the dark, screams I can’t release
Drowning in silence, but I won’t find peace
So I lie through my teeth, praying for some ease

They think I'm strong, they think I'm fine
But inside I'm cracking, every damn time
Bruises don’t fade when they’re carved on your soul
So I build my walls, let no one know

This is my reckoning, this is my curse
Every word I spit just makes it worse
I'm stuck in a cycle of hiding my cries
When the truth’s too heavy, I'm living in lies
No one sees the pain behind these bloodshot eyes

Telling the truth is just suicide
People don’t care about the demons inside
So I play my part, wear this goddamn mask
All these questions, don’t even ask
'Cause if I crack, I won’t ever come back

They think I'm strong, they think I'm fine
But my heart’s just dying, line after line
Scars that run deep never truly heal
So I hide behind stories that I know aren’t real

This is my reckoning, this is my curse
Every word I spit just makes it worse
I'm stuck in a cycle of hiding my cries
When the truth’s too heavy, I'm living in lies
No one sees the pain behind these bloodshot eyes

If honesty’s a weapon, then I’ll keep it sheathed
'Cause the truth is a bullet that makes me bleed
I’d rather be damned than let them see
All the hell that’s been eating at me

This is my reckoning, this is my curse
Every word I spit just makes it worse
I'm stuck in a cycle of hiding my cries
When the truth’s too heavy, I'm living in lies
No one sees the pain behind these bloodshot eyes

So I’ll keep lying, yeah, I’ll keep hiding
‘Cause showing the truth means giving up fighting
This is my reckoning, my personal hell
Locked in my secrets, no one to tell