Tell Me It Was Real

Blue glow on the cold floor
I'm drunk and disoriented in this room
News about my life comes out like wind
My body screams for it
I mentally ask you to tell me it was real
How did this whole shit end?

New life, a prey ready to be eaten
My tears are gathering with the drink
I'm losing myself, come and pick up the pieces of me

I went from happy to broken in seconds
My friends say they warned me, but I ignore them
I just want him to tell me it was real
That I wasn't delusional, that I wasn't naive again
Through the windows I see what could have been
If I hadn't made a mistake, had made my mistake the truth
Now I'm on the floor drinking something that will give me a hangover

The next day my friends arrived
I was lying in the middle of the cold floor
No, I was dying on the cold floor
They joked that I had gone crazy
That I would kill him, but would I really do it
I gave my time
It's only fair that he gave his life

My empathy will be a knife
I'll break everything that reminds me of him
But I want him to say it was real
So I don't kill someone in vain

I went from happy to broken in seconds
My friends say they warned me, but I ignore them
I just want him to tell me it was real
That I wasn't delusional, that I wasn't naive again
Through the windows I see what could have been
If I hadn't made a mistake, had made my mistake the truth
Now I'm on the floor drinking something that will give me a hangover

Machiavellian, waiting for an opportunity
I drank every drink in that bar
I was planning my sweet revenge
I was planning to have powers

I went from happy to broke in seconds
My friends say they warned me, but I ignore them
I just want him to tell me it was real