The Guilty

Returning to the same place
Feeling things turn around
Seeing figures and closing my eyes
I remember everything
It haunts me
It breaks me every time

White walls, smell of medicine
Silent but loud cries
That environment is so devastating
It's sad, gray, white and black
No one goes there when they are well

Every time I remember this
I feel guilty, I feel like the one to blame
The guilty, the guilty of having locked someone to death

Tell me it's better in heaven
Wearing black has a new meaning
Carrying flowers received a new pain
I feel a pain, a pain of guilt
My tears don't show what I felt
Inside I was collapsing
I was fucking broken, I was going crazy
It was like dying and feeling someone go
I hope when I die I'm going to hell
I know this is the place of killers

Hearts stopping
I took a life and it became my sin
I saw the blood and couldn't do anything
Can I live a gray life?
I would feel better knowing it was my fault

Every time I remember this
I feel guilty, I feel like the one to blame
The guilty, the guilty of having locked someone to death

Tell me it's better in heaven
Wearing black has a new meaning
Carrying flowers received a new pain
I feel a pain, a pain of guilt
My tears don't show what I felt
Inside I was collapsing
I was fucking broken, I was going crazy
It was like dying and feeling someone go
I hope when I die I'm going to hell
I know this is the place of killers

Don't say it's not my fault, I know it is
I just wish he was alive, alive, alive
He was the most beautiful of winds
They say now he steers my boat
But I don't want to believe
Good things are happening to me
But I know I should suffer, suffer, suffer
He should cast a curse on me
I would feel better knowing that I will feel pain

Every time I remember this
I feel guilty, I feel like the one to blame
The guilty, the guilty of having locked someone to death

Tell me it's better in heaven
Wearing black has a new meaning
Carrying flowers received a new pain
I feel a pain, a pain of guilt
My tears don't show what I felt
Inside I was collapsing
I was fucking broken, I was going crazy
It was like dying and feeling someone go
I hope when I die I'm going to hell
I know this is the place of killers