Returning to the same place Feeling things turn around Seeing figures and closing my eyes I remember everything It haunts me It breaks me every time White walls, smell of medicine Silent but loud cries That environment is so devastating It's sad, gray, white and black No one goes there when they are well Every time I remember this I feel guilty, I feel like the one to blame The guilty, the guilty of having locked someone to death Tell me it's better in heaven Wearing black has a new meaning Carrying flowers received a new pain I feel a pain, a pain of guilt My tears don't show what I felt Inside I was collapsing I was fucking broken, I was going crazy It was like dying and feeling someone go I hope when I die I'm going to hell I know this is the place of killers Hearts stopping I took a life and it became my sin I saw the blood and couldn't do anything Can I live a gray life? I would feel better knowing it was my fault Every time I remember this I feel guilty, I feel like the one to blame The guilty, the guilty of having locked someone to death Tell me it's better in heaven Wearing black has a new meaning Carrying flowers received a new pain I feel a pain, a pain of guilt My tears don't show what I felt Inside I was collapsing I was fucking broken, I was going crazy It was like dying and feeling someone go I hope when I die I'm going to hell I know this is the place of killers Don't say it's not my fault, I know it is I just wish he was alive, alive, alive He was the most beautiful of winds They say now he steers my boat But I don't want to believe Good things are happening to me But I know I should suffer, suffer, suffer He should cast a curse on me I would feel better knowing that I will feel pain Every time I remember this I feel guilty, I feel like the one to blame The guilty, the guilty of having locked someone to death Tell me it's better in heaven Wearing black has a new meaning Carrying flowers received a new pain I feel a pain, a pain of guilt My tears don't show what I felt Inside I was collapsing I was fucking broken, I was going crazy It was like dying and feeling someone go I hope when I die I'm going to hell I know this is the place of killers