Tragic Things

Why did you leave me here?
Broken, lost in fear
Why did you hurt me?
You didn't even want to call the ambulance and run away from my house
You didn't even let my favorite toy stay with me
I was in pieces, I was waiting for death

It was like self-harm
It was like breaking something and not fixing it
It was like leaving me raw
It was like killing myself slowly

Sometimes I would rather have died than kissed you
You were so beautiful, I didn't see your mask
And when she fell it was too late
I was already on fire and you were smiling triumphantly
I wanted to punch your pretty face
Because it will be with her that I will have my worst nightmares

The cold of the night was freezing
It seemed to paralyze me, I didn't even see you stab me
The pain was throbbing, it was addictive
I wanted to hurt myself
So I wouldn't feel the pain of you leaving
Why won't the hole in my chest close easily

It was like catching fire
It was like stabbing yourself
It was like lying on broken glass
It was like smiling amidst the ashes

Sometimes I would rather have died than kissed you
You were so beautiful, I didn't see your mask
And when she fell it was too late
I was already on fire and you were smiling triumphantly
I wanted to punch your pretty face
Because it will be with her that I will have my worst nightmares

It was so tragic
It looked like a movie scene
You walking out the door and me begging you to come back
These tragic things make me believe in the end
Why did you use me so much
That life doesn't even seem to make sense

Sometimes I would rather have died than kissed you
You were so beautiful, I didn't see your mask
And when she fell it was too late
I was already on fire and you were smiling triumphantly
I wanted to punch your pretty face
Because it will be with her that I will have my worst nightmares