What If

You only get it if you risk it
You know the biscuit
And everybody seems to love the taste while I still sit here
Choking on my silly mind
That I have tried to fight
But deep inside me when it’s time
It surely will survive
It starts with overthinking
Before I’m sinking
Drowning in the sea of thoughts
Somewhere between yes and no or stop and go
And then it starts to grow
My fear of I don’t know
It comes like 1, 2, 3 and then it disappears
The aftertaste remains
Equals a 5 course meal
It leaves no time, no break, no pause or space
I’m feeling fully lost inside this maze

No wonder no one ever seems to understand me
I just don’t get it myself
Try not to hate me
Until the next big thing that you think is tiny
But my brain quite likes it
And decides to size it

I, I, I want to say what keeps me low
Want it to shut, shut up
Want it to get, get up
Get up and let go
And I, I don’t want to fear what I don’t know
What if it turned out right
And I’d be stuck though I could get up and let go

Oh
What, what, what if