Monster

I can still see your face
Hear your laugh
Taste your taste
Like a dream I could chase forever after

I could try to ignore
But I’ve been here before
As I'm faced with the end of another chapter

I'm trying to remember
Why it never really felt right
But my memory is a monster
When it’s working in hindsight
And I'm sitting in a pool of water
Looking at a full Moon
Thinking I would love to hold you
Knowing it is too soon

In a flash you were gone
That was it
We were done
We had fallen away in late October

No more thrills to unfold
No more talks of getting old
Just a trail of mistakes to tide me over

I'm trying to remember
Why it never really felt right
But my memory is a monster
When it’s working in hindsight
And I'm sitting in a pool of water
Looking at a full Moon
Thinking I would love to hold you
Know it is too soon

I feel I'm going under
At every little thought of you
And I wish I had the answers
But I don’t know what the hell to do
So I'm going over conversations
And staying up through the night
Knowing what it took to love you
Knowing it was never right

What kind of love is this?
What kind of love is this you're putting us through?