Dear Father

Dear Father
I'm coming home
Even though it's not the same
It makes me feel at ease
The smiles of all the things you made me
When I was just a baby

Dear Father
I will never forget
All of these old memories
How our garage was practically a toy factory
All of your hard work and the stinky stench of grease
And I know how much my mother loved you
And my brother and I did too

But Dear Father
Things have changed
You're no longer here and you're the only one to blame
And now there's empty spaces I want to fill but just feel
Sad
I feel sad

Dear Father
Why am I so lost
I am trying to live on but I just get lost in my thoughts
And I
Thought I could just forget
But there were secrets you were hiding from me
Things you did not want me to see
Why did you keep it all inside
I could see the empty space in your eyes

Dear Father
Why did you do this to yourself
I loved you like a daughter could love nobody else
Dear Father