Cannonball

I stumble back home and
Leave the door open
6 in the morning
I fall into bed

Your disappointment
It stings like an ointment
Just for a moment
And then I forget

Oh this cold indifference
Boredom and bitterness
I can’t keep doing this
Night after night

I don’t want this anymore
But my heart’s a cannonball
Dragging me under these waves
People don’t change

You smell expensive
But I know it’s rented
Boys can be poison
And still be rose scented

So I wash you off me
Cocaine and coffee
These days you stimulate nothing inside me but

Cold indifference
Boredom and bitterness
I can’t keep doing this
Night after night

I don’t want this anymore
But my hearts a cannonball
Dragging me under these waves
People don’t change