Growing Sideways

      G                        Bm
So I took my medication and I poured my trauma out
         C
On some sad-eyed middle aged man's overpriced new leather couch
        Em                          G
And we argued about Jesus, finally found some middle ground
           C
I said, "I'm cured"

       G                        Bm
And I divvied up my anger into thirty separate parts
          C
Keep the bad shit in my liver and the rest around my heart
          Em                             G
I'm still angry at my parents for what their parents did to them
             C
But it's a start

               Em                 G
But I ignore things, and I move sideways
             C                         G
Until I forget what I felt in the first place
                   C                    G
At the end of the day I know there are worse ways
               D  D4  D
To stay alive

                   Em                     G
'Cause everyone's growing and everyone's healthy
            C                             G
I'm terrified that I might never have met me
           C                        G
Oh, if my engine works perfect on empty
               D
I guess I'll drive
               G
I guess I'll drive

         G                       Bm
So I forgot my medication, fell into a manic high
         C                           C
Spent my savings at a Lulu, now I'm suffering in style
       Em                                      G
Why's pain so damn impatient? Ain't like it's got a place to be
       C
Keeps rushing me

              Em                 G
But I ignore things, and I move sideways
              C                        G
Until I forget what I felt in the first place
                   C                    G
At the end of the day I know there are worse ways
               D  D4  D
To stay alive

                   Em                     G
'Cause everyone's growing and everyone's healthy
           C                             G
I'm terrified that I might never have met me
           C                        G
Oh, if my engine works perfect on empty
               D    D4 
I guess I'll drive

        C                 G
And if all my life was wasted
         Em                   D
I don't mind, I'll watch it go
             C              G
Yeah, it's better to die numb
                 D   D4  D
Than feel it all

        C                 G
Oh, if all my time was wasted
         Em                   D
I don't mind, I'll watch it go
             C              G
Yeah, it's better to die numb
                 D   D4  D
Than feel it all

              Em                 G
But I ignore things, and I move sideways
             C                          G
Until I forget what I felt in the first place
                   C                   G
At the end of the day lord there are worse ways
               D   D4 
To stay alive

                   Em                     G
'Cause everyone's growing and everyone's healthy
           C                              G
I'm terrified that I might never have met me
          C                         G
Oh, if my engine works perfect on empty
               D
I guess I'll drive
               G
I guess I'll drive