Trust

Father forgive me for you know that I am always sinning
I take no interest partying with liquor, fucking up my system
Excuse my language that's a hang up on how shitty I've been feeling
I'm sorry I feel no attraction, I know that it’s been a minute

Excuse my language, listen baby girl this is just how I've been feeling
Sorry I'm feeling attraction for you at this very minute
Cause I'm so lost, so lost, for your love; yeah
Said, I'm so lost, so lost, for some love; yeah

The walls of my mind trapped me inside this house
4 years of my life praising God just went out
The front door, what you tryna run for
Leaving with that blunt force
Might knock the teeth out my mouth
The heat of the south with a soul just like ice
Moving alone with a heart full of spite
Love my family way to much to just leave
Fucked my up my mind and the heart on my sleeve

Hating my life, every second I grieve
First 2012 and now 2016
First when I met you, never could forget you
Knew somethings up when I fucked up my speech
Protected your heart while the others just left
Opened your mind when I said something right
So I tried harder our friendship grew farther
When I could've been a father, you stood by my side

I gave you my heart and you gave the mud
Careless about pussy I wanted your love
Wanted your time, promoted your growth
When I called you mine bitch you cut open my throat
Took a whole year to get my self back afloat
Gave you my money and I gave you my clothes
Gave you my time and them all of my dreams
Played me like a pawn when I should've been a king

Father forgive me for you know that I am always sinning
I take no interest partying with liquor, fucking up my system
Excuse my language that's a hang up on how shitty I've been feeling
I'm sorry I feel no attraction, I know that it’s been a minute

Excuse my language, listen baby girl this is just how I've been feeling
Sorry I'm feeling attraction for you at this very minute
Cause I'm so lost, so lost, for your love; yeah
Said, I'm so lost, so lost, for some love; yeah

I like the way that your hair gets when its wet
Little things like that I try to forget
Romance is troubling, doubling stress
And at times like this I will count the regrets

Your face is the ocean where I'm lost at sea
My chest is now broken I struggle to breathe
Been months since we’ve spoken our daggers now sheathed
Pluck all the petals that line round our wreathe

And lately I been thinking bout’ all those times
We would stay up late and just try to find
Bodies we knew in the dead of the night
A hobby that grew because something weren’t right

And sometimes you struggle to settle to sleep
Something, it took us, unsettling sweep
We became jealous and jealousy reaps
They would all tell us our problems were weak

Trust is important, but I could not trust you
An issue that haunted me until I left you
Don’t cry girl, you’re leaving me deaf too
All of the reasons I had to undress you