Scream Not To Cry

Once more i surprise myself
Seen me talking with cowards
Scream not to cry
Cry to fell clean
I was never happy with that
It´s shameful what i am
I can use everything that makes me forget
My enemy watches me always
Today he returns stronger
And takes back all the recollections of my life
All the reality that i wanna forget
All that is dirty and ridiculous in me
For many years i have tried
However i fail every fucking day
I´ll never get to kill
The enemy who lives inside me