No Pointing The Finger

I'm looking back on the past
On the things that didn't last
All the tearing, all my failings they catch up with me
I'm looking back on a time
Right when I hit my decline
When I saw you I lost my mind and I went crazy

Do you hear his name
Do you see his face
Etched inside your mind
Do you fear the shame
Do you feel the rape
Do you still say the blame wasn't mine

I understand now
You were only trying to save me
The things I asked I didn't need to know
I understand now
The gift that you gave me
'Cause if I'd known I would've lost control
I just wish you weren't so far

When I saw you beaten on the bed
My mind went blank, my eyes went red
All the anger bottled up inside exploded in me
When I saw the tears in your eyes
I knew we'd be saying our goodbyes
And deep inside I knew this was the ending

Do you hear his name
Do you see his face
Etched inside your mind
Do you fear the shame
Do you feel the rape
Do you still say the blame wasn't mine

I understand now
You were only trying to save me
The things I asked I didn't need to know
I understand now
The gift that you gave me
'Cause if I'd known I would've lost control
I just wish you weren't so far

I'm sorry, so sorry
I'm sorry
I know you know, I told you so
I just lost my mind
I'm sorry, so sorry
I'm sorry
I know you know, I told you so a thousand times

But I never really thanked you
For not dropping any names
For keeping me safe
Because who knows where I would be
If you hadn't thought about me
You're selfless
And I wish you all the best