Who I Am

So tired
So tired of this ordinary life
Waking to the nothing that I have
So angry
So angry with myself
For throwing away everything I had

I need to escape
Every mistake
Every breath I take just makes it worse
I need to believe
But all I do is bleed
And every time I breathe my lungs just hurt

This is who I am
Accept me if you will
I hide behind this mask
I hide behind these pills

This is who I am
Hate me if you must
But you'll never know how I feel inside
And how I don't believe in trust

So tired
So tired of being stabbed in the back
Betrayed by everyone I thought was sincere
So angry
So angry at the world
I tried to live in love but I can only live in fear

I need to find release
But the pain will just increase
And my mind feeds this disease with thoughts of loss
I need to find a love
To find out what I'm made of
But all along from up above the angels turn their back on all who's lost

This is who I am
I can't help the way I feel
The fire in my eyes and heart
Can never be concealed

This is who I am
A mess without a name
A shadow of a failure
It's always been this way

I want to find someone to help
I want to believe in someone else
I want to find out for myself
Just who I am
I want to find someone to help
I want to believe in someone else
I want to find out for myself
Just who I am