Nasciturus

So warm here in this flesh
Is this my home, mother?
One formless thing, nothing
Growing to be a disturbance
The silence was my greatest friend
No more, no more
So safe in here in this flesh
Is this my home?

Why… You try to tear me away
Scrape out, erase, remove
Would be better if you go to sleep
It’ll only hurt for a moment

The beat of life squashed by cruel existence
Feeling almost like a fucking God
Quick before the heart starts beating
Quick before the neurons merge

I sacrifice my own blood
I sacrifice my own blood for better tomorrow

Mother, tell me is this my
It’s so dark here, no place to hide
I beg you mom, don’t leave me now
What if God looks here
And finds out what you’ve done

Decision stained with blood
Forever a thorn on soul and heart
Decision stained with blood
Forever a thorn on soul and heart
Decision stained with blood
Forever a thorn on soul and heart
Decision stained with blood
Forever a thorn on soul and heart

Becoming a God