Defender

Looking through your eyes, wish I could disappear
Standing on the edge I have nothing to say

I heard your request, you asked me to stay
Please let me escape, I can not wait
Don’t try to eliminate my withdrawnness
I’m relentless, forgive my selfishness

I’ve tried so hard to love others
Always I felt being captured
At last it was me who moved on
Tried not to feel the weight of thorn

Here we are and it’s all my fault
The guilt will haunt for so long
For years I’d been pleased on my own
Till I released to smash my soul

Ever since that day I’m avoiding deep links
Have to let me soar, I can’t be chained long

It wasn’t you who ruined my heart
But I can’t deny what’s in my eyes
Looking for my part that has been gone

My life is an endless fight to love again
Steady desire of holding hands
How can I give up my self-defense?