January 21st

There’s a lot you don’t wanna think about
And sometimes you can keep it away for days
But you see something and you’re reminded
You see someone and you’re reminded

It’s all you can think about
It’s the only thing you think about
But it’s not something you wanna talk about
So you just keep talking to yourself
The words spinning around in your head
Over and over and over and over and

I think, I think too much
Thoughts spilling out of my head
And learning how to swim
Finding homes in other parts of my body

I can feel them bubbling just under my skin
Running through my veins just a little too fast
A little too thick to flow right
Clogging up the tunnels and turning to sludge

Then my toes start to tingle
And my hands feel like they might fall off
There’s a gaping hole in my chest
And I can feel the wind blowing straight through me

I think, I think too much
Thoughts spilling out of my head
And learning how to swim
Finding homes in other parts of my body
Thoughts growing legs
Crawling under my skin like bugs
Swimming through my veins
Swimming upstream to spawn
And make me worry even more

I think, I think, I think, I think