Insomnia

Over and under
But still held on to my dependence
You can always sense my sins
And carry out my sentence

It ends tonight
This battles’ almost lost
Some demons never die
So keep them at bay will have to be enough
Fetal, writhe
I'm not looking above
It’s 3 a. M again
I’ve lost my faith
In government and God

I've searched for a message
I've prayed for a cure
Found nothing but questions
In the space between their words

The fact you never gave up
May have to be enough
I’ve lost as much as I’ve found
What do I have now?

Don’t hold your breathe
For an apology
I’ve done the best I can since then
So what the fuck do you want from me?

You’re the bliss
You are the parasite
You are the love I can’t accept

They are sterile
But they are far from
Pure on the inside
They are the dirtiest of a all
They hide behind their walls
And tell you, you are nothing

I've searched for a message
I've prayed for a cure
Found nothing but questions
In the space between their words

Pretending
Painting self portraits
Something indulgent
A little less real
Show them a handful of faces
And none of them will ever be mine

The fact you never gave up
May have to be enough
I’ve lost as much as I’ve found
What do I have now?

Are you pure?
Are you pure on the inside?