Stillborn

I swallowed a pill for every day that I let drift away
I swallowed the guilt, for all the times I’ve made you feel less than
Now I lay down, I look around; this is my ending, self-driven
Every day is the same, how could I be the one to blame?
I close my eyes, hoping it’s the last time
I wish you could see me now, my apology with no sound
The words, unspoken, weigh me down
Today my eyes leave the world
So that’s 15 down, and I can’t feel anything changing
But I must lay down
Suddenly, now I see, my misery is my own decision
Decide!
I hope you can hear me now, my apologies sung out loud
Dying, I call out for help
My eyes must not leave the world