Connected In Betrayal

"Connected in betrayal of everything we are,
Covered in everything we are not”

You are a screen,
Unto which I project
Fantasies, needs
My learned behaviour

No doubt it is hard to reach through
You, like myself, are caught
Turmoil is created, in attempts to get rid of this
We know there’s something wrong

Difficult to pinpoint
Everywhere excuses are to be found
And someone to profit off our misery
Why should real change be suggested,
If it would collapse the economy?

Still there are moments of a different reality
Shining through, it will not die!
I see with awe, a human being
More than enough to fill this emptiness….

We impose on each other
Unspoken demands
And feast in bitterness, hope and despair
We feel so connected
In this dense betrayal (connected – in – betrayal)
Of everything we are
Covered in everything we are not

We gladly add
Layer by layer
Everything which alienates us from life
We are gladly entertained
And pay greatly
For another emotional outburst so we can reassure ourselves there is still life

Still there are moments of a different reality
Shining through, it will not die!
I see with awe, a human being
More than enough to fill this emptiness….

We impose on each other
Unspoken demands
And feast in bitterness, hope and despair
We feel so connected
In this dense betrayal (connected – in – betrayal)
Of everything we are
Covered in everything we are not

No wonder there is some confusion
Despair and grasping towards unrealities
I see myself playing games bound to failure
And laugh at the tripping effect of my insights

How can we truly learn
If unlearning is of utmost importance?

How can we assimilate what we thought to be ourselves
When it was not ourselves in the first place?

This was never ourselves in the first place!

Difficult to pinpoint
Everywhere excuses are to be found
And someone to profit off our misery
Why should real change be suggested,
If it would collapse the economy?

Still there are moments of a different reality
Shining through, it will not die!
I see with awe, a human being
More than enough to fill this emptiness….

We gladly add
Layer by layer
Everything which alienates us from life
We are gladly entertained
And pay greatly
For another emotional outburst so we can reassure ourselves there is still life

There always needs to be half-heartedness
To keep the tension, the dulling grip
To keep a sense of continuity
Whereas wholeheartedness will create its own dynamics

Not necessarily accommodated for by internal and external institutions
But hopefully accommodated for by life

That which is lived will be transformed,
But that which is dimly seen somewhere in the shadows
Can “entertain” us forever
Enthrall us forever
We can be lost in how “difficult” everything is….

There always needs to be half-heartedness
To keep the tension, the dulling grip
To keep a sense of continuity
Whereas wholeheartedness will create its own dynamics

Create its own dynamics…
Create its own dynamics

There always needs to be half-heartedness
To keep the tension, the dulling grip
To keep a sense of continuity
Whereas wholeheartedness will create its own dynamics