Communion

I watched the sun set in your eyes for the last time
I thought you died that night
You called me to tell me you wouldn’t survive
I heard the wind blowing through your hair

I would’ve given anything to be there
I could have sworn that I was
It’s not that I want to die
I just want to disappear

Do you think that I still dream of you?
Or long for the warmth that your body would provide?
Winter has never felt like it lasted for so long
But I’ve grown used to the cold
And I know that you see there’s no warmth where you are

(So I embrace the parts of myself that I long to change)
Is this the face that you were waiting to see?
(I embrace the parts that I hate because they remind me of when we were nearly the same)
Find me where eyes are afraid to meet, where held hands can cripple fingers
That’s how strong our love could be, but I’m still so scared

I am so scared by the things I cannot see
Like the simple idea
I don’t keep you up at night
With a smile tickling of your mouth
Share my collapse
There’s enough weight here to bury us both

It’s just another dream, it’s just another dream
It’s just another dream, it’s just another dream
It’s just another dream