From No Height

It's the street lights going off
Like a trick the second time
And it's all these oily lines I left from pulling in a basin
Just washing up the sides

It's the roots under the pavement
Something moving in the background
It's a jacket on the hook behind the door
All these things I could've sworn I figured out

Depicting my ascent I guess I got too far ahead
Watching steps I lost my count
Thought too hard about the end
When it comes for sake of pace I don't believe my blurry eyes

Climb a step that isn't there
Falling far, far from no height

And I fall so far behind

It's a paper with the answer
Edges soaking in my patience
Though I missed the crucial digit
We're still an honest calculation
It's a stick between the spokes
With a sudden change of light
And in the moment that I thought
You might want to stick around
As you turn and say goodnight
I was still one step behind

Depicting my ascent I guess I got too far ahead
Watching steps I lost my count
I thought too hard about the end
When it comes for sake of pace I don't believe my blurry eyes
Climb a step that isn't there
Falling far, far from no height

How'd I fall so far behind?