Dirty Mirror Selfie

I've been looking at the night sky waiting
To find another glitch inside this matrix
The amniotic that we all were made in
It's just the water that we wade in

Well I'm an honest man, I admit my mistakes
But what good is that when your reality breaks?
Arbitrary moments in your life are replaced by
The feeling that you're not in control

Because I hated myself for so long
Just to figure out that it was never my fault
There was something evil inside me pointing my anger at
All of the things that I thought that I lacked
Now I'm taking that back

And as I look unto a world unwinding
There's silicon instead of silver linings
The golden rule by which we've all been mining
But what the hell are we refining?

'cause I'm an honest man, I admit my mistakes
But what good is that when your reality breaks?
Arbitrary moments in your life are replaced by
The feeling that you're not in control

Because I hated myself for so long
Just to figure out that it was never my fault
There was something evil inside me pointing my anger at
Dirty bedroom mirrors and the person looking back
But it's a matter of time before I'm conquering it
I'll grab in a choke hold now I know I'm stronger than it
All this time I wasted struggling fighting for things that I thought that I lacked
Now I'm taking that back

Now I'm taking that back

I guess it probably serves me right even if it ends up feeling kinda wrong
I think about it every single night, I never sleep for long
I wake up every morning faking smiles
But it doesn't seem to budge a thing, I'm stuck and buffering
This fucking suffering only amounts in to stupid little songs

Because I hated myself for so long
Just to figure out that it was never my fault
There was something evil inside me pointing my anger at
Dirty bedroom mirrors and the person looking back
But it's a matter of time before I'm conquering it
I'll grab in a choke hold now I know I'm stronger than it
All this time I wasted struggling fighting for things that I thought that I lacked
Now I'm taking that back