Elizabeth

Somehow I chose you before we met
Like fate was drawing our silhouette
I've loved you longer than time can prove
Before these years started to move

You were that language no one can speak
A feral soul no one can reach
All locked inside, no open door
A world untouched, unknown before

But every time I looked at you
I read the things you never do
Between your lines, beneath your skin
I knew the quiet you were in

We both know it all too well
You only know yourself in the shells
Of battles lost to ghosts inside
Where all your loud demons hide

And I'm drawn into the deep
Where your shadows softly creep
I'm a lover of the abyss you keep
Of the echoes in your comma eyes that weep

I've been fighting who I am, I've been fighting the world I knew
'Cause every version of me ends the same, with you
I'm Sisyphus, I'm Prometheus sentenced by what I choose
The greatest act of rebellion, loving you

You closed yourself where none could see
A distant shore, an unsolved sea
But something in me recognized
The shape of all you kept disguised

Maybe the part of me left alone
That built its own unspoken home
Heard your silence call its name
And answered back just the same

So when you felt beyond all sense
Beyond all reach, beyond defense
I didn't break you to get through
I understood because I knew

We both know it all too well
You only know yourself in the shells
Of battles lost to ghosts inside
Where all your loud demons hide

And I'm drawn into the deep
Where your shadows softly creep
I'm a lover of the abyss you keep
Of the echoes in your comma eyes that weep

I've been fighting who I am, I've been fighting the world I knew
'Cause every version of me ends the same, with you
I'm Sisyphus, I'm Prometheus sentenced by what I choose
The greatest act of rebellion, loving you

And our lives will go on, we'll laugh in a crowded bar
Take something just to blur how broken things we are

And you'll be out there smiling wide
For somebody else's eyes
Letting strangers learn your body
Like it ain't no sacrifice

What am I supposed to do?
Pretend you never stay?
Fill your space with empty hearts
And throw them all away?

Drink until I can't feel my hands
Smoke until I can't see
Or scream your name from thirty floors
Until it stops hurting me?

I've been fighting who I am, I've been fighting the world I knew
'Cause every version of me ends the same, with you
I'm Sisyphus, I'm Prometheus sentenced by what I choose
The greatest act of rebellion, loving you