Disconnect

so it's come to this
such a sweet embrace
betray me with a kiss
to mask your other face
so don't look back
just walk away
don't turn around
or even try to stay
for such a valued friend
such an honest face
with a lying tongue
and a sweet embrace
feel my soul - such pain inside
twisting deep within this shell
shattered dreams
this ache it screams
unspoken words of broken hearts
knowing I am not myself
give me up unto this world
buried deep within the dark
it's so alone without you
can this be real or just another dream
another way to torture myself
another way to stifle my screams
if I could only feel
if my mind wasn't so numb
if my heart wasn't so worn
if my sould wasn't so torn
I want to be myself again
not just this empty shell
locked within this sea of darkness
left to rot within this hell
I need time to understand
to lick my wounds clean
break this curse upon my head
and disconnect myself again
salvage what is left of my heart
pick up the pieces and move on
I don't know just where to start
I don't know just where to go
I want to disconnect myself
disconnect myself again
I want to disconnect myself
disconnect myself from pain
pick up the pieces and move on