SOLDIER

I wish I could've said goodbye
One more time
Even wrote a letter
And signed it on the dotted lines
But when you called me
It hard for me to press decline
I guess I'm chasin all these feelings that we left behind
But I know because you toxic that you mess with minds
Didn't mean you have to pick me and the mess we mind
I should probley test the waters bеfore I take a dive

I guess I need to recognize that these scars on my body carry weight like a soldier
Not the person I wished to be when I got older
I wish we grew closer but we only grew colder
But you left me freezing and it hard to get over
Cause a broken-hearted person only find a heartless friend
Just cause I'm a soldier, I'ma carry to the end
I wish I could've left but it hard for me to leave
Cause you tuggin on my heart and my heart is on my sleeve

I'm not mad that you left, I'm mad that I'm alone
You could've said goodbye in person
But on the phone
Just a wicked way to leave
I hate to see you go
We had a family but you don't wanna be at home
If I ever blame myself
There be a bunch of nonsense
Not my fault so I guess I will have to cut my losses
But you left so fuckin fast that I couldn't process
I'm so sorry that I'm the problem that [?] on your conscious

I'm sorry that we fallin out of broken patterns
Broken arts
Broken home
Broken shattered
Sittin on your knees and you hope it matters
Beggin baby please but you came close to damage
You can't plead
I gotta leave
Carry the rest of
And I kept my head up and my chest up
And I keep my pride but my mind, you fuckin messed up
And even though I'm out now
You the one that left us

These scars on my body carry weight like a soldier
Not the person I wished to be when I got older
I wish we grew closer but we only grew colder
But you left me freezing and it hard to get over
Cause a broken-hearted person only find a heartless friend
Just cause I'm a soldier, I'ma carry to the end
I wish I could've left but it hard for me to leave
Cause you tuggin on my heart and my heart is on my sleeve

I'm tired of yourself and your collarbone
Just to remind myself, I am not alone
Just hopin that it would pass
The path that we're on
And all the memories that last after that you gone
Now even though I am moving on
There a part of me that wish you prove me wrong
Some people don't deserve your [?]
That my fault cause I made your heart my sanctuary

Thought you was the one I was supposed to marry naw
Not a scar [?] what I hold to carry on
All these emotions I hope to bury naw
Ridin on a rollercoaster
Oh so scary
We said forever
But that was only momentarily
Oh so scary
But I guess that we better off
Cause our wounds was affected and your [?]
Had a necklace with your letter but I tore it off

These scars on my body carry weight like a soldier
Not the person I wished to be when I got older
I wish we grew closer but we only grew colder
But you left me freezing and it hard to get over
Cause a broken-hearted person only find a heartless friend
Just cause I'm a soldier, I'ma carry to the end
I wish I could've left but it hard for me to leave
Cause you tuggin on my heart and my heart is on my sleeve